Friday was the no good, very bad, terrible day! Tears and everything. It is the first day that I thought I do not want to be here. Everything is ass backwards, no one cares (at school) what you want or need, no matter how many times you tell them, my teaching resources are limited and the computer is broken half of the time (i teach from the curriculum Cd), while I try to fix the computer the kids go wild,I am expected to teach, perform, dance with one moments notice, they are always trying to make me do extra, one day you think someone is your friend, the next day they are taking advantage of you, the grade sixes are horrible, etc.
Now, that being said, those things will not change. Regardless of what I do, they will not change. I have been trying to express my needs, make changes, cope, blah blah. This is the way it is and I am not leaving, so I must change my perception. It is difficult, let me tell you! Right now I am very tired and drained, so I am concentrating this week on getting built back up. My lessons will be simple, some things I have used before, and I won't feel guilty for not being a good teacher. I know that I am not very good at handling stress, so I am going to work on that. I will concentrate on the good things in my life, the things that make me happy and the things that I am grateful for. I will not let the archaic ideas of this new world rob me of my spirit!
Therefore, the following are things that I have to be happy about:
a good cup of morning coffee
my family
the good weather here in Mokpo
meeting a new friend
the children at the orphanage
Sister Thomas
My friends
My little grade three buddy
reading all the Prison Break episodes online
Our hug campaign in Mokpo Dec 2nd!
One month and 12 days until vacation in Austrailia!!!
having money to go on vacation
Lost 2kgs in the past 2 weeks
eating healthy lunches
Being offered a container of milk at the end of the day Friday by someone who understood I was upset
A few special students, formerly anti-English, who can now speak some English
my computer
my cozy apartment
finding curry in Mokpo!
And believe it or not... being a teacher :)
Now, that being said, those things will not change. Regardless of what I do, they will not change. I have been trying to express my needs, make changes, cope, blah blah. This is the way it is and I am not leaving, so I must change my perception. It is difficult, let me tell you! Right now I am very tired and drained, so I am concentrating this week on getting built back up. My lessons will be simple, some things I have used before, and I won't feel guilty for not being a good teacher. I know that I am not very good at handling stress, so I am going to work on that. I will concentrate on the good things in my life, the things that make me happy and the things that I am grateful for. I will not let the archaic ideas of this new world rob me of my spirit!
Therefore, the following are things that I have to be happy about:
a good cup of morning coffee
my family
the good weather here in Mokpo
meeting a new friend
the children at the orphanage
Sister Thomas
My friends
My little grade three buddy
reading all the Prison Break episodes online
Our hug campaign in Mokpo Dec 2nd!
One month and 12 days until vacation in Austrailia!!!
having money to go on vacation
Lost 2kgs in the past 2 weeks
eating healthy lunches
Being offered a container of milk at the end of the day Friday by someone who understood I was upset
A few special students, formerly anti-English, who can now speak some English
my computer
my cozy apartment
finding curry in Mokpo!
And believe it or not... being a teacher :)
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